Learning About Myself

Last year, I decided to put this blog into “let’s figure things out” mode while I decided on the direction that I wanted to take it.

Well, I still don’t have a clue about what direction I’m going to take my blog and make no promises about what I’ll be writing about going forward or even how often.

Other than that I plan to start writing again.

Back when I got on the Note-taking productivity kick just before the Pandemic started, doing all those daily notes and staying so organized sucked all the life out of my writing. The more I used all those different note-taking apps and the other productivity apps that I tried, the more I stopped enjoying my writing.

It was almost as if I didn’t have enough “juice” left after taking all those daily notes, keeping myself organized, and all that other productivity stuff I bought into especially the having to have a point for my writing – to enjoy writing. Writing became a process, where I would do research, draft what I wanted to write about in a note-taking app, double-check the research, copy it to a world processor, clean up the drafts again, then copy that draft to the blog editor, where I would tweak and continue to tweak some more, until I hit the publish button. While the end product was more polished than my previous work.

At the same time looking back, it got so that the applications and process I was using became the focus of my writing, not my ideas or personality.

The end result was that my writing here dried up and blew away.

Since November, I’ve been documenting my D&D group’s adventures on a different blog, which has allowed me to play around with how I want to use AI (not as much as many others) and re-learning how to write for the simple joy of it. It has been fun and challenging to write something that is useful to the group, while allowing me to stretch my imagination, more than a little.

Which got me to thinking about this blog.

As a result, I’ve been playing around with WordPress.com this week and figuring out how to use it again with all the changes they’ve made to “improve” their website builder/blogging site. Which to me, is no longer drop dead simple to use, but required a bit of experimentation and groping blindly to figure out how to make it look sort of how I want. Oh well, I just have to get with the times. Though you can expect theme changes as I get re-acquainted with the beast.

What will I write about going forward?

I don’t really know and you know something I’m not at all worried about it. Especially, since there is no point or reason for me to write anything, other than I want to. It sure as hell ain’t because I’m a great writer, attempting to break into the pro writer ranks, or anything else.

I just like to write and more than anything it helps calm down my monkey mind and all those myriad of thoughts circling round and round within me noggin. Along with sorting things out by putting those ungangly thoughts into draft posts that never get published as they were originally written. I get to see how stupid some thoughts are when it is on the screen in front of me instead of that seemingly endless loop pinging around in my head.

Though I expect a bit of wordsmithing around my D&D adventures, running – now that I’m able to do it bit more again (if I can get past this latest bit of Plantar Fasciitis fun), how technology and I are currently getting along (I’m falling behind more each day). Though I’m not going to make it my journal, too many of those thoughts don’t need to be shared publicly and aren’t anyone else’s damn business.

Along with whatever else comes in and out of this butterfly mind that I’m blessed and afflicted with.

The meandering thoughts of an old retired fart, who keeps moving forward towards whatever comes next, but has learned that my writing and then publishing it, is something I truly enjoy.

Yeah, that’s probably what I’ll write about.