Sometimes Reality Sucks Donkeyballs

This kind of post is the hardest type for me to write. In them I am admitting to failing yet again and it does not matter the reasons or how good they might be, it was not what I wanted, but it is what I need to do.

Earlier in June, with great fanfare I decided that I was going to jump into the marathon training pool and run the Maine Marathon on September 30th. However, I did that with one caveat, that I could weasel out if at the end of June, if my body was not holding up to the training.

Guess what.

Those are storm clouds coming in and they are pretty fitting of how this marathon training cycle has gone.

Yeah, said body ain’t doing so great.

Today is supposed to be the big test day, where I go out and run a half marathon for my long training run – culminating in me getting ready for the next phase in this marathon training cycle. It is actually a pretty nice day for it in my opinion: Rain, temps in the low 60’s and a breeze out of the South.

However, due to another case of the niggles (right calf), my balky right hip and left Achilles/ankle issues, I am going to wait until next week to attempt another long run. Yeah, you read that correctly, I am more than likely going to skip my longer run this week.

Why?

Unfortunately, the right hip discomfort/pain has been increasing as I have increased the mileage over the past four weeks and is now present as I sit here at the table writing this post. Probably not a good thing.

The left Achilles/ankle area begins to bother on runs longer than 7-8 miles and gets worse as the run gets longer. Again not a good thing.

The niggle in the calf – I am pretty sure that will be just fine in a couple of day – one of those things that happen when I wear zero drop shoes for mowing the lawn (about an hour an half), when I haven’t worn zero drop very much at all and then go run lots of hills that night. I know better.

No more fantasy

So instead of going out for that victorious half marathon training run that would actually start my marathon training, I am sitting at the table writing about how I am going to find a different goal to chase in my running this summer.

Yeah, I don’t see me continuing my marathon training.

Am I disappointed?

Yes, I am – very.

Actually it rather sucks.

Another failure added to the long litany of failed marathon attempts for me. I am almost starting to see a pattern to them.

The reality is that

I had a feeling that this was going to happen after last week’s 11.0 miler and then after I mowed the lawn the other day. The right hip kept bothering even when I wasn’t moving around, even though I have been doing prehab and rehab work consistently, a first for me. Finally, yesterday’s 7.0 mile recovery run also told me a lot about how the body was holding up or more accurately how it was not.

It was time to re-think and look closely at what I am doing to myself.

When I did that last night, I had to wonder if I was already in pain when just sitting on the couch with my hip, how was I going to keep increasing my mileage on training long runs up to 20 miles and the weekly mileage to over 50 miles over the next three months.

I asked myself if it was going to be worth the pain, suffering and possible crap that I could do to my body, to justify training for and then running a marathon in September?

Actually the decision ended up being easier than I thought it would be for me to make when I looked an saw what lay ahead for me. Although I held out hope that today’s long run would be one of those miraculous runs where nothing hurt, so that I could justify continuing to train for a marathon.

So it is kind of fitting that I didn’t get to attempt it today.

I don’t know what the future holds and I am sure that I will attempt to run a marathon again at some point, but not this year. Although with each passing year, my window of opportunity does grow a bit smaller.

Not unless my fantasy world becomes real and a miraculous healing happens.

Sometimes reality sucks donkeyballs.

Now to think about what my plans are for the rest of the summer and keep working on getting the Right Hip and Left Achilles/Ankle areas back to being pain-free.

Sometimes you just have to be willing to re-adjust your goals to meet current circumstances.

6 thoughts on “Sometimes Reality Sucks Donkeyballs

  1. Sorry to hear that Harold.
    I have another race that day and may be away for business anyway.
    Still plenty of other races to train for.
    You’ve probably made the right choice.
    Andy

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  3. Well crap … I had a feeling with some of the recent posts that you were headed that way – and better safe than injured. I know it is a severe disappointment – and I wish it had gone differently for you. 😦

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    1. Sometimes thing turn out the way they do for a reason, so I will go with it and turn my attention to other distances. 🙂 Yeah, after my last long run, I was not feeling very confident and when the hip started to bother just sitting around the house I was pretty sure things were not where they needed to be. So instead of moving to wishing I could keep going, I pulled the plug and will move on. It is okay, even though running a marathon is a big deal, if I can’t it does not change who I am – a runner 🙂 hehehehe

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