Today the first step was taken.
After talking a LOT with Mary, we decided that it was time for me to go back to being retired. We have worked hard, been frugal and are in a position where I don’t have to work unless I want to.
While I like where I work and believe that what I do there is important and how I do it make me an asset, not an arse.
However, since Phil’s death, we have done a lot of thinking and talking about what is important in our lives. There is a LOT of stuff that we will have to take care of moving forward and my continuing to work will get in the way of what we need to do.
This morning I talked with my supervisor and submitted my resignation effective June 30th. She is a great boss and understood completely why I was getting done, but it didn’t make it any easier for me to actually do it. That guilt that is felt when you are a member of a team and then decide to leave is tough.
In spite of those feelings, I know that it is what needed to be done.
On July 1st, I go back to taking the road less traveled.
Last week I attended the funeral of my brother-in-law Phil on Thursday – it was not something that I expected to do for many more years.
Since Mary’s brother Phil died unexpectedly of natural causes on June 1st, there has been a lot of grieving, pain and yes, more than a little hard work. Phil’s sudden loss has also been an eye-opening experience for me.
Since his death I have repeatedly asked myself:
- What is important?
- What are my priorities?
- How do I want to live my life with whatever time I have left?
- How do I want to leave things for others when I do pass (hopefully many years from now)?
The three plus hour one way drive to Phil’s house, has given me a lot of time think about those questions and a multitude of others that we ask ourselves after someone close to you dies unexpectedly.
Books are written on this subject so a weekly summary blog post is not going to do it justice, but needless to say the wheels have been set in motion for changes for me/us going forward.
Now it will be interesting to see where it leads.
Getting back to more mundane things and even some running. Continue reading