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It appears that I am coming to a crossroads in my professional life as a Special Educator or even as an educator – yet again.
When I came back to teaching in October ’09, I really believed that this was what I was meant to do and I relished being back in the classroom. I would like to believe that I am a pretty darn good special education teacher and I think a few others do also.
However since the new year something has really been missing and I can’t put my finger on what it is. The person who used to jump out of bed at 5:00 A.M. to get ready to get out the door and face the challenges of a new day at school, now grunts and groans about having to get up and go in, procrastinates and finds other things to do, where I used to live my life around being a teacher.
Whatever the factors causing this change are, they seem to be a pretty big deal, because I find myself not wanting to go to school more days than not. Oh I still go and do what needs to be done, but it isn’t the same.
What are the reasons for these changes? I am not sure but over the course of these next 75 days, I have to figure it out. If I do not find out what is missing/wrong or if I do and I am not able to rectify whatever “it” is. Then I will be forced to look very carefully at what being a Special Educator or an educator means to me and what my choices will be.
Is it simply the time of the year (as one person suggested) and it will pass? Or are other teachers feeling this way too? I am searching and scratching my head for answers.
I hate heading towards the crossroads again, so soon.
What have you done to make a difference today?
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